“[That song]’s mostly a true story,” admits singer Jordan Dreyer in the latest issue of Rock Sound. “A year or two ago, down the street from where Brad [Vander Lugt, drums] and I work, a kid was shot. It’s an area that’s been riddled with gang violence, which has been really sad to witness. It was the son of a lady I work with’s best friend. He was shot accidentally in a drive-by shooting that was intended for the group of people he was getting off the bus with - friends from his school. There were a couple of days where everyone knew who had done it and who had been shot.
There was this weird, eerie calm, and they found the guy in a hotel room on the other side of town. He locked himself in his room and shot himself. That line ‘Can I still get to heaven if I kill myself?’ is something he asked his uncle when talking about what to do.”
Cutting it out isn’t the right way and distracting yourself isn’t the right way, but at a certain point, the recognition is that, this is how my life has gone to this point and theres nothing i can do to change that. Theres nothing i can do to erase the past. this is who i am as an individual and that includes the suffering as much it does the joys, and the positive memories. Cause everything that happens to you, everything thats gone on before, is whats brought you to that point, wether or not you at handed it or not. And to me, yet again this is only to me, i cant say this with certainty because i’m not anyone else. But to me thats a big part of being happy, after the fact is just recognizing that it happened. theres nothing you can do to change it. and maybe its how you incorporate that, in how you are as a person is different from case to case i’m sure but, in the end for the author its just recognizing that you cant change whats happened and in someways you cant change whats going to. But you shouldn’t let that fact frighten you into not living your life, not looking, not trying to survive, and find a purpose.